Monday, August 6, 2012

spread to thin

We were driving back home today from Robbie's preschool open house.  We were all getting tired and cranky and I had to go back to work.  All of a sudden Grace tells me, "Mom, you don't do anything around the house.  All you do is lay around and watch TV and check Facebook.  You don't clean the house or cook dinner.  You don't even put us to bed.  Dad does all of it.  He does laundry and takes us places." 

I held back tears as I dropped them off at home and headed to work.

Her statement has solidified what I have been thinking for quite a while.  I am totally spread to thin and not doing anything well.

Between working full time, getting volleyball season going again, school starting for the kids, and all the other 25 things I have to cram into the day, nothing is getting done well.

I'm not concerned about her thoughts on me cleaning the house, because that's not going to change, but more that she doesn't think I contribute to our family.

I spent 4 year of feeling that way when I stayed at home and now my daughter thinks it because I'm at work.

Is it really worth it?


Wednesday, February 1, 2012

Horking mom?

I forgot how great it feels to get out of the house.

As nervous as I was to go back to work and adjust to a new schedule, new people, my new role in the family, I just forgot how great it is to get out and be able to be me.

To be good at something that's just mine again.

To let the creative juices flow.

I haven't felt that as a hairstylist for quite awhile.  I am back to envisioning hairstyles that will look good on people.  I am creating colors that enhance peoples personalities and natural beauty.  It has been fun.

I really didn't think it would be either.

I envisioned myself as a stay-at-home mom forever.  I still consider myself that too.  Is that wrong.  I'm not a working mom, because I am at home with the kids most days, but I'm not a stay-at-home mom anymore either.

Maybe I'm a:

horking mom?

stay-at-work mom?

stay at home during the day and miss bedtime every night mom?

None of those sound very good to me, but our situation is working for the moment.  I am liking my job and hoping to get crazy busy so that Brian can become the stay-at-home dad (if he wants to).  He has been loving having so much time with the kids too.

So, the roles are working at the moment.  We will have to wait and see what changes come within the next couple of years but right now its a great change. 

Wednesday, January 25, 2012

an evil genius?

Should I be concerned that Robs doesn't know ANY colors?

Yes, hes 3 and I know that its not that big a deal, but I just think its a little odd that he truly doesn't know ANY colors.  AND, its something we actually work on with him.

What color is that wall Robs? (its yellow)  Red.

What color is Superman's cape Robs? (its red)  Black.

What color are your jeans Robs?  (there blue)  Purple.

Now none of this is that big a deal right now but it just seems odd to me that he is fully learning the rest of the normal 3 year old things except colors.  And, I mean he doesn't get ANY of them right.


You  would think that he would eventually get one or two right by guessing but he doesn't.

Sometimes, I think hes just screwing with me.  I wouldn't put it past him to do that, but I should be able to tell after awhile that he is tricking me, right?

Or maybe I'm raising an evil genius that is just trying to make me crazy very slowly....

I will blame Brian for that though.

I talked with Rob's preschool teacher about it this morning and she hasn't ever dealt with this before with such a young student so she didn't really know much about it.  She did tell me that she would find out some more info for me though about it. 

Ultimately, this is a pretty minor thing to deal with, so we are lucky.  I still don't want Robs to be made fun of when he gets a little older because he colors a tree the wrong color or his rainbow colors are wrong in science class.

I'm sure we will get it all figured out but it just another thing that Robs has to deal with.  Thank God that its minor!

Linking up today with PYHO :)

Monday, January 23, 2012

its been awhile. . . .

You know its been to long since you blogged when blogger has changed EVERYTHING since the last time you even longed in. 

For real.  This is a little weird.  Kinda like the first time I blogged. 

Well, anyway, let me catch you up on whats been going on...

I went back to work pretty much full-time as a hairstylist.  I am working at a salon that is 5 minutes from home with some great girls.  I am really loving it, which I didn't expect.  I am working really hard to build my clientele back up to what it used to be.... or better.  So if you need a haircut and live in the Holt area let me know :) 

Brian is working in the Alternative Ed. Program at Eastern which he really likes too.  I don't know how he does it, but if anyone can its him.  Some of the things he deals with on a daily basis scare me a little bit but I know he will do a great job dealing with all the things that his job entails.  Its really not something that everyone can do. 

We are still waiting to hear which high school they are going to close.  If it is Eastern then Brian's job will change and both of our coaching jobs will be gone.  This sucks but we will have to wait and see, which is a constant with this school district. 

The kids have all had a birthday.  Grace is 7 now and just got her ears pierced.  Annie is 5 and is now a ballerina and tap dancer (well....) and Robs is 3 and tells me that he is Spiderboy and I am Spidermom, which I can live with for now. 

Now that you are all caught back up, I am hoping to fall back into the funny.  I want to post a couple times a week about our crazy life.  Hopefully more about the funny, goofy, stories than the serious ones but you get what you get, and you don't throw a fit...

That's what I tell the kids anyway. 

Thursday, December 8, 2011

oh sports movies

I LOVE sports movies.  I could watch them all day everyday.  It doesn't matter what sport it is, I will watch it.

And most of the time I tear up.


Or sob....


My ultimate sobfest sports movie is  Remember the Titans.

I can't get 2 scenes in without a box of Kleenex.  Every part of this movie is so wonderful and inspiring I just can't ever get enough.

Here are a couple of my favorite scenes:

How can that not inspire you?! Really?!  C'mon?!!

This next clip is my all time favorite scene ever from a movie.  It doesn't hurt that I have a slight crush on Coach Yoast.... which Brian teases me like crazy about.  But, have you scene this man in Armageddon too?!  AAAHHH!!!!!

Sobfest.  Every time.  Every time, dammit.

I just watched this clip about 5 times.  The kids are looking at me like I'm crazy right now.

I just love it.

Linking with Mama Kat today :)

Mama’s Losin’ It

Thursday, December 1, 2011


I have what every mom would love:  A weekend of freedom.

My husband just left for Florida and I am taking the kids to my in-laws for the weekend. 

I know this all sounds like Heaven right?! 

When all this came up initially I was worried, because I had just started a new job and didn't want to pay for a babysitter all day Saturday while I was at work.  I think my in-laws thought they were doing me a huge favor by taking the kids for the weekend.  It is pretty huge that they offer to do this sort of thing but it caught me a bit of guard.  I mean, what am I supposed to do without Brian and the kids?

I can watch what I want on TV.

I can run errands by myself without time limits. 

I don't have to yell at anyone to put underwear on.  This is the most important one. 

In theory this all seems wonderful, but I haven't been by myself in at least 8 or 9 years. 


At least for an extended period of time.  And mostly if I was by myself I was grocery shopping or running a quick errand, not alone for the weekend with only my life to think about and plan. 

Its just weird and I don't do weird well. 

I have even tried to book on ENTIRE Saturday up at work so it will take up more time until the kids and Brian get home. 

I know.  I'm pathetic.

I am sure it will be a wonderfully nice weekend that I need, but I am still nervous. 

Wouldn't you miss this:

Wednesday, November 2, 2011

True Story.

So I was down to my last errand of the day.

I pull into the bank with my mini-van and 2 of the 3 kids.  All of a sudden a guy in an awesome car totally cuts me off. 

I continplate ramming him, then decide I shouldn't do that with the kids in the car. 

The 3 of us walk in right behind the guy that was driving the awesome car.  Hes mid 30's, stylish haircut, nice clothes. 

"You have a really nice car."  I say with a sweet smile on my face.

"Thanks, yeah, I like it."

"I couldn't tell, because I thought it was a little reckless to cut of a mom in a mini-van.  Just an FYI, most moms wouldn't mind ramming your ass.  I mean they are in their mid-30's driving a mini-van and you are an ass driving a quite nice car.  So, long story short, the mom doesn't care about what her mini-van looks like as much as you care what your cool car looks like."

"Oh, umm, sorry?"  He says.

True story. 
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