I am slightly overwhelmed. I have about 15 big things coming up in the next couple of weeks that I am not ready for.
When something like this happens it makes me procrastinate.
I am not a procrastinator.
I am normally pretty planned and scheduled. It's the only way I feel in control of 5 lives. It's the only way I feel like a better mom.
I don't forget to take snack to class.
I don't forget which day is orange day or purple day or show and tell day.
I live by the schedule. Especially when August hits.
That's when I start coaching volleyball, Brian goes back to school and starts coaching tennis and 2 of the 3 kids start school. The 3rd one will start in September.
So I have all of this. Then I got a call, while on vacation, from a company offering me a part-time job.
I think this is what I am really freakin out about.
I am jumping ahead to how I am supposed to work part-time, coach, shuttle kids, and stay sane.
I am also worried about finding daycare this fast. How am I supposed to do that? Is it really going to pan out for me to drive 30 minutes there and back, pay for daycare, and not see my kids for 3 months (that's when volleyball will be done)?
Then I think, maybe I should just start working in a couple years when all the kids are in school and I don't have to worry about daycare and shuttling as much during the day. But, this job probably won't be around then and we could use the money now.
That is, if it pays enough.
Thinking about all of this makes my mind to busy to figure out a schedule.
Which makes me procrastinate.
Which makes me overwhelmed, which makes it worse.
Then I start the procrastination all over again.
It's a vicious cycle.
But, I am knocking a few blog posts out. That's a start right?
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